thoughts & feelings

something in mind

2006-07-21T17:31:00.000+08:00

the promise i wrote in the letter after i came back from manado....hav i done the things i wrote in it???i still remember some parts of wat i had written inside....

seriously ponderin...nope....most hav not been achieved...=(
when i get back the letter in sept...will i say: yes i hav done the things...or jus OH MY GOODNESS..........??

jus spoke to my O2 og-mate...scary...left 6 weeks....
.....42 days....
i console him n myself:
mutiply by 24hrs...it wont look sooo scary anymore....
sigh....had a chat wif him.....yup.only one word:"scary"....=(

due to the 'efficiency' of our class rep- hsienwei...or jus simply put it as....
due to the laziness of our civics tutor....all our parents will meet him in the mornin....
and i mean all except alvin's parents....
so.....tomoro is the class outin.....
but.......will it be a class outin??? or jus cliques outin again???
it all depends on tmr...

e project tt we gals started on is no longer a baby one....
its no longer an entertaining one...
its definitely drainin us....

finally most of the things at my side r settlin into place....
hope tt i can still relax in the midst of stress...
=))

Long Chattery Stuff

2006-07-15T11:16:00.000+08:00

there are many things at hand to tok abt now...

hav been busy wif frens, family, relatives n of cos e 'baby' project....
after one of the talkative sessions with the gals..
i got to realise tt actually i hav been really tooo busy to care abt other stuff...

yst..met up wif a close fren...we had a long n gd tok...
it led me to realise tt heart-to-heart tok is necessary either in frendships or any kind of relationships..
it makes people grow n understand one another more...
misunderstandin arises due to mis-communication...
for me i truly understand tt...d only way to clear up everything is to pluck up ur courage n face the matter bravely..
i did it..n certainly the courage i nd is alot...
thx to my other close frens who supported..
u may be hurt..u may feel sad...but i would rather i let u know how i truly felt dan keep it inside me...
i really thank my fren for sittin there patiently..waitin for me to complete my long-draggy speech...
n finally tellin me the stuff tt i nd to hear to understand...
thx for takin it positively..things definitely turn into a better way...=)
yst was definitely fulfillin n worth it...

there can be some point of time where people of our age may jus b hopin to truly be able to connect wif a 'someone'...
it jus struck me in one of the many conversations tt people would definitely feel this way...
talkin abt boy-girl relationships...its jus abit too far for me???
mayb cos i simply had too many things at hand...
i love spendin time wif my family as we seldom spend quality time tgt...
tt's why i treasure it alot more when there r times for us to b tgt...
my bros n i r veri close..mainly cos our parents r always away...
i may blame them at times...but i know without them workin outside, my bros n i will not hav a gd life...
my grandma...my aunts..my cousins...they stand a big part in my life...n definitely my frens....n unaviodably..my studies..
my life may only b revolving ard family, relatives, frens n studies...but i tink its not borin at all..cos i m still focusin on buildin stronger bonds with them!!!

the FUN DAYS!!!!

2006-06-25T22:06:00.000+08:00

tomoro is the start of the school!!!!

ready for school?? NOPE, of cos not...

CT...ended last week...officially ended on thursday @ 11.15am...

since its over i shall jus skip the topic and let it past me..but of cos bearin in mind wif me the lessons that i learnt....

yup tokin after the end of CT...the fun starts here....
been doin things that's on my list:
chattin for hrs wif frens...
goin shoppin....
eatin out....
usin the com....
watchin the black-box (tv)...
cookin....
uploadin stuff lik photos n stories....
spendin more time wif my family members.....

Jus a brief summary here:

thurs - went to burgerking and chatted for hours wif jiaying n scully....went shoppin ard for presents n clothes for my brothers....came home to cook n had my wonderful meal in three days!!!
after dinner went shoppin at ntuc wif my younger bro....bought ice-creams, dairy products n soooooo many other stuff to eat!!! came home to eat n watch tv!!!
next was goin online n updatin myself wif people's blogs...n ultimately chattin wif scully tt yea..lasted till 2.30am...

fri - woke up damn freakin early to prepare to babysit my cousin!!! hahhhaah...she's officially 1mth-3wks old!!! followed my uncle n his wife to the ICA to make passport, settle the name n PR stuff... the small baby gal was initially veri guai......but when its her turn to take photo...she cried!!!!
n choice i got to carry her to the babycare room to pacify her....but her cryin(without tears) went non-stop.....i almost died den.....
after all the stuff she was so tired tt she knocked out at 12noon.....slpin all the way to almost 5pm.....by the time she woke up i was alredi on my way to town!!!!

went there shoppin untill dinner time when i met seok to hav dinner together...Pepper & Lunch...not bad....
went shoppin ard somemore...in the end sth happened!!! kind of really despo!!!! hhahahha...but cant say it here....=X
came home n chatted online again!!!! n yup on the phone wif scully again till 1am...!!! multi-taskin is fun!!!

sat - forced to wake up early....=(
after that..ate my breakfast n arranged the stuff that i bought the previous day....soon it was time to prepare to meet my aunt...
met her at jp...went causeway shoppin!!!!! cleared my list of things-to-buy.....=))

again....sth happened...n i once again chatted on the phone wif scully....
hahahah...this time even longer than ever....from i tink 8.30 or 9pm till...thou did rested in btwn...we lasted our tok into....*am in the mornin!!!!!!
i tink the most fruitful thing from these three days was the openness i felt btwn frens...=X

the choice i made

2006-06-17T20:26:00.000+08:00

the choice i made

studyin studyin..yup i was busy wif tt.
everyone's doin tt...am i stressed?? cant deny tt..
downloaded the physics ans to check wif mine...

come to tink of it..
last yr...at this time i was still tryin so hard wif the subs and tryin to cope wif them...
and yup....playin n relaxin was in the agenda too...
nw its hols but not hols to many of us..
irony...

last yr...in march i was given a choice..nope choices i wuld say...
i took dis combi in 3 months course....05s27...
the only best class - only combi in jj..
mr sia...our fatherly teacher...who kept desuading us from takin back this combi again - maths, further maths, physics and economics...
in the end i forsake the other chances and together wif hanh and the other half of the class...we took back this combi.
its a challenge to hanh and me esp...
we wanna prove mr sia wrong...we wanna prove to ms chin we can certainly survive in her econs and in our maths...

did i regret? yes i did....terribly....
it was the start of this yr i began to ponder and struggle....
lookin at the class of the alredi pathetic no. of 19 students...only 9 r left to survive wif four As...
bein the econs rep...wat's saddenin was everytime the markin of attendence i hav to strike names out...
copin wif f maths together wif econs was definitely tough den...

i wuld always ask myself the ques why...
i was given so many choices and the chance to change my combi...
i could hav gone to a triple science class....
or a double science n double maths class....
or even i could hav been in e same combi as most of my sec frens in a PCM combi...

i chose back econs in d end....

tt was the past...i did regret and was almost on the verge to droppin econs after d orientation dis yr...luckily i hav my frens wif me ...i managed on wif them givin me support and assurance...reallie grateful to them for standin by me...=))
yup the regret certainly brought me to tink n ponder on alot of things...
but wat's the pt of regretin now when i had alredi chosen to walk dis path...

these days i revised the topics...amazingly...econs....i could manage better this subject dan d other ones...

in life...comin to jj...this plc has let me learnt alot...
regrets on comin to jj and takin up dis tough combi had gone wif the wind..
i learnt alot more from my cliques now...=))
nth can be compared to the bonds we hav btwn us...

hanh, scully, jiaying n me certainly gone thru alot in dis class wif sooo many special happenins!!
i love them man!! the memories they hav given me....the new tings they intro to me to...

liyana, seok, jess n me...from sec sch till now...we played talked laughed cried complained studied n fought....

these gals i will always appreciate them and i hope the bonds will continue the yrs down the road...

(after readin thru blogs n frenster..i hope to let them noe...)
hanh:
among the gals, she's the one that went thru the most wif me....
from the moment she intro herself to me in the hall on the ferst reportin-to-class day....we chatted non-stop... i will never forget the laughter we had in class...the jokes we talk abt tt culd make us laugh for hrs...jus when we were bored we will sing songs together...exchange the wonderful lyrics tt we find them to b meaningful n sweet... the long hrs of talkin, tgt wif meihong, outside the bio labs whenever we had our breaks...
we promise to take back the same combi...the pact we made to prove the teachers wrong(donno if we still could do so..=X)
from me bein an OGL to you bein an SLO...and the national day celebration tt we went (thx for realising tt i was sad on e national day, accompanyin me and massagin me ^_^)...
sooo many things......
finally this yr.....we went manado together.....a life-changing experience that brought us even much closer.....
n now...wif the world-cup fire that's burnin bigger n bigger....think we will get even closer when we scream together after the CT!!!

scully:
lik wat she said...its by the amazing chance that brought us tgt....=))
the torturous n brain-suckin PW-ing tt we hate!!!
hahah..but tt's how we got closer...=X
when i ferst saw scully rachel....heheheh...most of us in class thot she was someone's crush..^_^...we got really fascinated!! but in d end it turn out to be that there'r two rachels!!!..
among us...althou i too is a pratical one....
she's the well-recognised miss practical!!!!
we both can sit in front of the tv for hours....watchin wat we lik and watchin shows that we jus simply find them borin...but still..as tv-addicts..we can jus sit there n watch..
i was really amazed by her love for econs and how exam-smart she is!!
hahahha...she's always the one that's awake among us in lesson...
special thanks to her for always keepin me awake in Gp lessons...
she's oso one that can talk alot...we can chat for hrs!!!!
hehe...i believe tt's how we got closer too!!!
comin to this yr...she n jiaying r the ones who kept updatin me on the class happenins when i am always away for orientation stuff tt didnt seem to end untill march...
wat came next was e pw exhibition tt we wanna avoid....haha...in d end we still concede to mr sin's persuasion....
n recently e talenttime period..during which we chatted sooo much more n oso e soccer matches!!!
i noe truly well tt the fun will nvr end here..^_^

jiaying:
she's the most animated gal!!!! hahahhaah....she's always the one makin us laugh.....
don be deceived by her size....she's macho and the fittest among us!!!
her trend is to let her shirt be out...hehe....not scantily dressed thou!!...
she's the blurrest among us and a messy person too!!!...
but amazingly this yr she changed!!!...wonder who's e one tt changed her untidiness to neat-ness...but still her blur-ness..i don tink can be cured...=P
my ferst impression of her was...a 'wild' gal...hahhha...
she's hyper whenever we talk abt food...shoppin....play....movies....
but sian when it comes to work n work....heh..
chatted wif her abt china trips n scully too!!!....we can go on non-stop...
the times when hanh was away in vietnam....the conferences we had wif scully....
the discussions on econs can always drift to topics tt we tink r non-econs..but we still continue...
the great games tt you and scully intro in class - hangman n finger-game!!!
hahhahahah....n of cos not forgettin the 'fantastic' drawings you drew!!!
(i tink should send you to an arts class to learn the basic drawin..^_^)

i hope tt we can, the three of us, yrs down the road to make our frenship stronger dan ever...and hope we can fulfill our dream of meetin together at the age of 35....n go travellin..=))

liyana, jess n seok:
these three 'buddies' of mine never fails to make me happy sad n fortunate...
the yrs of frenship....the common memories we hav....from bein in sec sch council, the countless events we went thru tgt, ...to the decision we made to come to jj...
the tears we shed together....the camps we went thru...the gettin of O-level results one n half yrs back....
i know all of us r workin really hard...the goals we wanna achieve....the results we aim for act as not only a recognition of our efforts but oso as gifts to our teachers in dunearn n mayb in jj too...
jus half a yr more n we can reach wat we wanted years back.....the As' results tt will make us shed tears of joy...=))

goodluck to everyone...esp my gals!!!!...
to hanh n jy: i noe both of u r watchin matches everynite, forget abt studies if u r cheerin n havin fun!!!! tt's the best way to watch soccer!!!....
to scully: noe tt you r stressed, so dearie, eat more of ur fav ice cream n chocs!!! or jus go chattin!!
its jus 6 days more to go!!!!....actualli its abt 5 months more???....hahahha...but not bein too stressed up should be the main key!!!
people slp more, cos slpin improves memory!!! it makes your complexion better too!!!
stayin up late adds more weight n certainly nt very gd for health!!!
so try to slp at least 8 hrs per day...tt's the best!!!
('',)

nuggets of wisdom

2006-05-31T18:25:00.000+08:00

nuggets of wisdom

1. a reward is nt always sth physical. at times, spiritual joy n satisfaction do beyond material reward.

2. one who refuses to face reality will never be happy.

3.one who has experienced the adversity will understand tt joy n happiness do not come by easily. they are thirfty n appreciate e good fortune they enjoy.

4. many problems hav simple solutions. however, it requires courage and wisdom to discard old ways of tinkin.

5. one can borrow the help of others when faced wif problems which one cannot solve. (however, ultimately, thou help is given, he/she has to come out to solve the prob himself/herself.)
6.a problem is not solved by merely sweepin things under the carpet.

7. one must be sincerely appreciative of help from others.

8. unreasonable ppl lik to use threats to achieve unreasonable requests, but they are better than anyone else except for their arrogance and overbearin attitude.

9. to judge others by ext appearance only reveals one's ignorance n snobbishness.

10. the wise are skilled at observation and deduction.
11. some people are truly foolish believin in everyting others say wifout ponderin on it themselves.
12. one's conscience is the truth. only one with conscience will speak the truth.
13. one may be able to deceive others, but not one' own conscience.
14. there are many fundamental principles in life. the two most impt ones are honesty and keepin one's word.
15. one can only deal wif matters well if one is just and fair.
16. an upright person is not afraid of others talkin behind his back.
17. those who flock to your position are not true frens. only those who share your joys and woes are true frens.
18. there is no loss in losin a friend who depises others.
19. lies are frightenin. repeated over time, it can shake the confidence even of those who rufused to believe it at ferst.

true happiness

2006-05-31T18:15:00.000+08:00

true happiness

many ppl tink happiness comes frm ownin a palace, many cars, havin servants and lots of money in the bank. but are all rich ppl happie? hav u read abt e greek king midas who couldn't even enjoy his life when all that he touched turned gold?

wat's e use of havin many cars when u don hav time to enjoy a walk in e park? wat is e use of havin lots of money to buy watever fd u wan when u hav so many aliments tt e doc asks u to consume only porridge?

so wat is happiness? for a child, playin wif a ball is happiness. an old man might become happie when he meets a fren frm his childhood days. a young man might feel happie watchin e latest Bond movie. for someone, readin books might be happiness; for someone else, listenin to music might be...=)

wat is true happiness then? true happiness comes out of selfless acts of love, and charity. givin presents could bring more happiness than receivin them. small acts of kindness, lik rememberin to wish on birthdaes n bein courteous to strangers, could brin joy not jus to e recipient but oso e giver.

wisdom

2006-05-31T18:06:00.000+08:00

wisdom

was readin a book...some interesting stuff on wisdom..

in many situations, common sense and wisdom can save the day. tact, patience, humility and bein lever are all part of bein wise. knowin when to speak n not to speak is as important as what u say. similarly, knowin when to be patient is as impt as knowin when to hurry up and finish sth. askin e milk to hurry up n boil is as stupid as patiently takin a bath while your hse is on fire.

education is impt, no doubt, to excel in life. however, we shuld oso learn e wisdom of life along wif physics, chemistry and biology. wat is e purpose of learnin e laws of gravity if u don understand tt if u jump frm the 10th storey of a buildin, u will fall downward and not fly? books give u the fundamentals of wat u shuld learn. u hav to go beyond e learnin and apply e knowledge into real life.

days of hols

2006-05-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

days of hols

the hols is here but it meant that the mids are comin soon too...

hmmm..shall talk abt the last week of sch....

mon was the soccer match..finals...didnt noe abt it until the gals told me in class in the mornin..and after more clarification with our class "star" - liangzhi..its confirmed that the match will be held at ccab n its lik at 4.45..
i was kind of all out wantin to go and the only prob left is to find someone to go and be crazy wif me!!
haha..in d end the gals i asked to go didnt wan to go...so i targetted my class gals..but cos they were havin monday blues..but i still thick-skinned and tried to persuade them to go...hahhah...in d end i managed to convince scully wally!!!...thx dear!!!
hahha..we were lik released from lesson sooooo early at 3 that we gals jus sat down and chat agiain..=)
finally jy and hanh left leavin scully and me to continue chattin..^_^..
we waited and waited for the bus...in d end we gave up...we took buses down...
btw we are considered veri veri lucky...to hav the buses comin straight after another..but the terrible ting was both of us got to run in!!!!
sadly when we reached there hsien wei told us it was 2-0 wif jj leadin...i was lik -_-"
hahha..at least we were leadin...!!!
it was certainly sth to note here...hahhaha..the moment when we reached..scully (loudhailer) shouted for our class star!!! and guess wat everybody turned!!
hahah..donno should i be malu abt it or be proud...heheeheh..i tink i am proud of her!!!
it was not really that excitin when the game continues...(am i hopin for a turn of events?? and wif jj fightin back?)
hahah...mayb cos i hav been tryin to follow the matches, i tink i was hopin to get real high lik last time....
nonetheless....towards d end of the whole session...scully and i had fun...
we were laughin none stop!!!...esp her..couldn't stand properly....
when everyone's quiet..she was laughin..wif the spread of the laughin gas..she made me laugh and in d end i tink we attracted 'some unwanted' attention...
after the ting we congratz to lz and we had to leave asap...
hahah...but we continued to play and u could actually c two gals jumpin and bein so hyper along the road leadin to the bustop...
i tink its only when we saw hsien wei den did we stop..if not i tink we will be playin nonstop...hahah...

den came the next day...wif the laughin gas still in d air...we enjoyed our day light-heartedly...

the next few days in sch were of cos extremely interestin since its the last week of sch!!!...in d end i tink most of us didnt do much work...but instead we were 'playin' non-stop...and as usual..we let our imagination run sooooo wild that we had sooooooo much time chattin and laughin...
i truly began to feel we are back to havin fun in sch again lik last yr!!! (",)

den came friday!!!..haha..the eve of hols!!!
the four our us decided to go out and eat together since we are all sooo hungry and we wanted to jus continue chattin....=)
the food's nice and the topics we talked abt of cos cant be said here!!

and as expected when the hols come it seems i am busier dan ever!!!

sat met up wif my aunt and we went shoppin!!! cos the great singapore sale is now on!!
and i am not kiddin u...the tings are of more variety this yr and of cos i tink the stuff are cheaper...unlik last yr..thou there was the sale..things were still not that varied and worthy...
but this yr's diff..the feelin is diff..the varieties are more than before and the discounts are more too!!!!

came sunday was the wrappin of rice dumplins!!!
i woke up late and by the time i walked to the kitchen mum has alredi started to boil two bunches of dumplins alredi!!!
so i ate my breakfast n started to help her...
we jus wrapped and wrapped and wrapped...countless bunches of ten dumplins is the result...
every yr she wrap dumplins for some relatives and frens...so no choice..more people to give meant more to wrap...
but its fun...haahha...guess wat !!!!..the dumplins' rice are not salty enuf!!!
i was busy throwin lemon at my mum when i knew it after tryin...hehehhe...
(lucky the ingredients are salty enuf!)

come yst...initially supposed to jus go lib n pass fathona stuff..in d end i actually borrowed a "few" no of books....hee
jus when i was abt to proceed home wif my beloved books...mum called...^_^..decided to jus forsake the readin of books to go down my grandma's plc to see XinYi!!!
haahha..my baby cousin who's not even one month old!!!
she has indeed grown bigger since i last saw her....took the cam and snap countless photos of her..the diff expressions: yawnin blur sad frown sian looks!!!
she doesn't wan to slp when we kept askin her to...plus she was oso yawnin non-stop!!
hahhaha...mum says she cant see clearly yet and so she muz be attentively listenin to us tokin as she doesn't wan to close her eyes!!
the cam is still at my uncle's plc....
soon...i shall post her photos here!!!.....=)

today passed by so quickly....so fast...two actual days of hols are goin to be over..=(

by the way....information for jj-supporters for soccer:
there will be a soccer match between two grps of jjcians on our home ground at 9.30am on this friday 2th june.
one team consists of most of our s30 class guys includin jinhong and some other students from jj....
the next team will consist of people mainly from s27 and jjcians who r previously from swiss cottage...

all the best to them!!!!!

aquarius

2006-05-21T11:27:00.000+08:00

aquarius

As ephemeral as a summer breeze, AIR SIGNS (Gemini, Libra, Aquarius) are the most social creatures of the zodiac, and their social lives are an important part of their identity. Craving constant variety, they are typically not disciplined individuals, and while they are far from afraid to commit, they may not be cut out for it, as they can be superficial in their emotional development. While they may not be the best life partners, Air Signs are fun and lively companions whose unique charm may sweep you off your feet. When it comes to this breezy bunch, think energy… and sometimes, style rather than substance.
When romancing an Air Sign, don't let things get too habitual or your Air Sign may blow past, moving onto someone new, simply for change. Since Air Signs tend to be fickle, keep yours busy - and therefore happy - with little surprises and a good shakeup of venue/attitude/activity every now and then. The Air Signs embrace spontaneity, need mobility, and demand action. If you're up for an exciting challenge, let an Air Sign carry you away in his or her whirlwind.

AQUARIUS is the most unconventional of the Air Signs as well as one of the most unique and independent of the zodiac. Don't tell your Aquarius what to do or how to do it. They have their own way of doing things and no one can tell them otherwise. Commonly described as obstinate and unorthodox, the Aquarian delights in being different and going against the grain. They can stir up trouble just for the sake of it. Conspiracy theories, personal philosophies… Aquarians love their own groove/routine whether it makes sense to anyone else or not. Leave your Aquarian plenty of space to do his or her own thing and if you're understanding and accepting of their idiosyncrasies, as well as supportive of their causes and beliefs, you'll keep him or her happy. Aquarians are extremely social beings with lots of contacts. They can be spontaneous, stimulating and very interesting partners.
Motto: Don't tread on me.

the meanin of marriage

2006-05-21T00:10:00.000+08:00

the meanin of marriage

jus came back from the weddin dinner...

it was grand and beautiful..the food's is nice and everyone is so handsome and pretty.

the bride and groom walk-in ceremony is filled wif obstacles wif the groom carryin the bride up the stage in the end.

they did a dance and the groom played the guitar for his wife, forever love...

lookin at them..together wif the others present we gave them our blessins...

the video of the ROM and mornin ceremony is played...many photos of their datin period were shown too...

the elders too gave their blessins in the form of poems and speeches...

sth caught my attention: being in love is two persons' business, gettin married is two families' business, havin children is two generations' business...we wish them the best for their future...

it was certainly heart-warmin to see all these and feel the happiness for them...

things are definitely not wat it always seems...

came to almost the end of the event was the photo -takin...

it's saddenin to see people who was in the photos a few years ago to be out of it now...

this was a weddin event to see the union of the couple...but here in the real-life u see couples divorcin and leavin the family....

this weddin is my dad's side..

and ya..many uncles and aunties were present...

we took photos by generations and gender..

the ferst photo was all my dad's brothers wif their present wives and i certainly mean present...

the ex-wives were present too ...but they r not the ones takin the photo wif my uncles..

lookin at my cousins and lookin at my uncles takin the photos...it makes my heart sour..

to the cousins..the people in the photo are their dads but some of the ladies in the photo are people whom they seldom see..wat's even more depressin was the 'original' ladies were jus standin infront lookin at them takin the photos..

another photo that too made me sad was the photo that is dedicated to my generation...

all my cousins... together we took a big photo...as we were takin the photos all the mums and dads look with happiness and i feel a tinge of sadness...

imagine u r not in any of the photos but ur sons belong to the family...

it jus suddenly made me question sth veri badly...wat exactly is the meanin of marriage???

i look at my uncles and aunties...i look at my parents..i look at my cousins...

does people still view marriage as important as they did in the past??

i don deny that i don approve some of my cousins' way of attitude towards relationship...u can say that i am jus bein conservative and not open-minded..but i jus feel if u were to really get into a relationship..tink carefully..r u able to try to solve the probs that may come ur way...r u able to truly forgive and forget if one day ur partner did u wrong but is willin to turn a new leaf??...r u able to accept the fact that people will definitely change and its a matter of fact that people wont always stay the same as u ferst known him/her??...mst imptly r u able to trust him and work things out together wif him/her???

its jus some thots that i feel many of us hav overlooked when one goes into relationships and eventually marriages...

today's weddin event is jus the ferst one this yr...since i was in sec 3 i hav attended at least one weddin ceremony per yr..be it my maternal side or paternal..

comin up next is two more weddins from my paternal side..one in june and the other in october..

i tink this yr is an auspicious year man..

my cousins are gettin married one by one sia...and scheduled next yr there will oso be at least one weddin too..its jus a matter of decidin the dates and annoucin it...

i tink tt's all for today...

may 2006 - eventful one

2006-05-20T01:15:00.000+08:00

may 2006-an eventful one

jus came back from talent-time and went surfin ppl's blogs..realised i hav missed quite alot thou...

its lik 1am in the mornin now..and after such a tirin day i am still able to fill sth up here..

jus some listin of stuff here...

this month was really a busy n eventful one....ferst wk was the preparation for the manado trip presentation...

it was amazin...jus when all of us thot tt we don miss them anymore...and concentratin on our studies heree...after doin the powerpoint slides...all the stuff came back...
the powerpoint is wat i am proud of to show to the J1s..
i read thru every single reflection booklets but i donno why jus cant find sya's one..
i scan thru all the photos in search of the best one to be shown to everyone...
everything was worth it...
thou scully and jiaying did ask me why i am spendin so much time n effort on it...as it was supposedly a project passed on to vattey...but cos she was affected by measles...so i did it..to me it was worth it..i doesn't noe how to explain to them..but still they supported me n cared abt me...really thank the gals then...

the 2nd wk came esp fast for many of us becos there were simply too many hols and happenins...
this particular wk my cousin finally came out to c this world...her name is XinYi!!!...izzit nice???!!
haha..say not nice oso no use...we all love this cute, sweet name....and ya she's extremely cute!!!....and one ting abt her is she loves to slp!!!!....jus one-wk old when i saw her...sooooooo fragile....wat's interestin is she falls aslp super fast...jus after meals she can simply blink her eyes at u when u'r talkin and the next moment she's deep into slp!!!...=)
cant wait to c her again....(",)

dis week is oso the presentation wk...met up wif the speakers: mia vattey junguan ivan and also trang...we practise and practise and finally the day came...i and hanh tt day was supposedly to hav lesson wif ms chin..but in the end we left half-way..hahha...jus becos we wanna c the presentation...

AND here is this 3rd wk that has come n is abt to go....

the jj soccer semi finals...initially the teachers wanted us cheerleaders to practise cheerin jus b4 the match..i didnt really cheer but did try to talk note of the cheers that will be used den...
in the end we reached the field that's somewhere far (i forgot the plc le..only noe its near botanical) ....it was as wat people should hav known...vj vs sa...the sun was super duper hot as when we reached there we alredi felt burnt all over wif only ten mins under the sun..imagine the players...the score was 2-0 wif vj leadin...
upon tinkin we realised tt jj is quite strong..becos tt time when they played wif vj the score was 1-0 wif vj leadin too..and i could still remember the day was a rainy day with the rain come and go...they all could actually tahan it and jj did a gd defence then...

but a mistake they made in vj-vs-jj match was committed again in mj-vs-jj match:
this time was a competition wif mj...mj scored within 1min when the game started...follow down was great defence on jj's part..i nv wanna stop cheerin for them..i finally understood wat hanh meant by sayin the bond tt u will feel when u really hav the passion to cheer for ur own team..i felt it...i n hsien wei together wif his gal fren was super excited thru'out the whole match...
we lost to that ferst-min goal...
everyone in the team did really well...and to our class soccer star: liangzhi, he performed really well..thx for defendin!!

next was the talent-time tt jus ended 3hrs ago...it was a long preparation tt leads to today's event...nope should be considered yst's..
scully rachel our class gal...got chosen as the emcee for the nite...preparation began from the start of semi...this gal..i hav seen how she had changed from bein anti-*** to joinin this school event that has made her enthu..haha...its a great and positive change i tink...
initially the stress she felt all the way to the very last hr of the event was sth i tink she has really learnt to cope wif...we as her class clique helped her in watever we could..
i got even closer to her after this event as compared to her i did had more experience goin on stage due to the many events held in sec sch lik choir and student council..but now i tink after goin thru this she's more experienced than me lo...hahaha..really kudos to her for her effort in this event...the seriousness in her and oso her strife to be a really good emcee in the event...she did a fantastic job!!!..

but there's jus a regret after this event...
i jus feel tt its really a pity when frens become strangers...
two gals in my life when i ferst come to jj seemed to hav really stepped out le...
lik wat seok asked me today too: izzit when things occur..izzit solely due to one person or due to the clappin of two hands..?
to voldermort i noe there's nothing more to say...
but to the other its jus sadness...
i donno how to say why there's jus this regret in me...izzit regret tt initially we were close or izzit regret tt i am unable to communicate her??? i donno..
its not tt i wanna to be like the past...but i jus feel that i and her are not even lik acquaintances le..sigh..

jus a few more hrs (after my slp) is another eventful day for me...gonna go for my cousin's weddin...the mornin stuff...the nite's stuff...dinner gonna be at The Legend...

my weekends are really filled and veri packed...to tink in march liyi was still tellin me to start 'now' and here i am stilll doin hmwk and not yet near to start revision..izzit tt the stress is so great now tt it's doin a reverse effect on me...askin me to slack..sigh...spa is jus next wk and many work has to be done esp now wif soooooo much work at hand...will i be able to make it????

(",)

one month's events

2006-04-15T15:02:00.000+08:00

one month's event

its a sat aftern...n i m slackin here....

one month le....since i woke up from the dream...

last chance for dancin and singing of songs....jjnite for O2...

jus sth tt i wanna share wif my frens here...

i wont forget the face on wanling's face tt particular nite....she was supposedly one of those people standin up on stage together wif her peers in shadow....the people huggin together on stage makes not only me but her feelin the lost of that particular chance..

but wat's really happy is...she has never regretted her decision to leave jj and embarked on a journey that she has chosen...njc...
she may hav lost the chance to bond wif a grp of frens that she will hav the fun, memories n laughter wif...but she has gained another set of experiences that can only be learnt thru the decisions made...

next was the blood donation drive....haix.....this time cant donate again...try again next time....

days in school are gettin busier than ever...the stress level is THAT high esp everytime in chin's lesson...but tt's oso the most productive lesson everytime...

one major thing tt has happened in school for the past wk is GERMAN MEASLES..
donno how the hell trang and hanh got infected..and this disease is highly infections..in the end these two poor gals got to be quarantined...shift rooms in hostel and cant come to sch for one whole wk...
but lucky we got vattey to help pass the homework....hah...and these gals r comin back to sch on mon....and i tink the whole f.maths cohort will clap for them for comin back....haha..

the next thing is the pw results.....haix.....
but i really wanna thank my class gals!!!...scully and jiaying for pei-in me tt day and jokin wif me....esp scully for complainin wif me!!
and thou hanh wasnt there wif us...but thank you soooo much for carin abt me..
and ya thx seok for jus nice appearin in front of me then....sorry kind of shocked u...haha
..i tink our class has done "exceptionally well" that even makkie oso donno wat's wrong...
si bu gan yuan is the phrase that scully has come up wif...haahhaha...hi5!!..i totally agree wif her man...
we hav come to the conclusion tt the wed's exhibition we shall disappear...btwn professionallism and feelings we chose the latter...

come to tink of it..its not the ferst time liddat le....it reminded me of the chinese o lvl results den....but i tink this is worse than previously...mayb cos of d expectation we held on to....the assurance we were given....

after ventin most of it out on thurs to scully jiaying n seok and lastly out to liyana on sat...ya its over le...no point mulling over it le...

instead of lookin at these unhappy stuff....there's lots of happy things man!!!

esp durin pc where i did better dan expected and i tink its all due to the help of chocolates and banana...scully and jiaying!!!
hahahaha...and after the pc....a great thing tt happen too...heheheh....collection of bus-pass went soooo smoothly.....=)

wat's even more amazin is Good Friday is really a great day!!!!!
yst was jus tryin my luck...and i actually got wat i hav been wantin!!!!!
it indeed was a good day....n finally.....a 'big' thing is settled....thx liy for helpin out!!!!

other dan enjoyin myself at liy's place wif all the music food videos and chattin...i even went out at nite to meet seok n jess....

baystreet 21....thou the food is considered okie...but i tink it doesn't really matter much cos we finally caught up...n ya i still tink the hrs of chattin doesn't seemed enuf...=(

heh....i tink i am becomin complacent alredi....die la...the temptation is sooo great....jus finish Robin and here comes chinese paladin dvd from jess...heh...den tonite still got the wisely files new series...n i m really paiseh to seok for draggin the da changjin show...but the truth is if i go get the dvd from my grandma's plc...i will wan to watch it....die le la...tv-addiction-sypmtoms r comin back....

back

2006-03-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

back

11th March

yup came back from manado...experienced soooo many things there....cut from the world for 6 days...but i had gained more than wat i had expected...

seriously i missed the days there....the days the nights the fun the stress the laughter the tears the songs the cheers the games the weather the sky the water and most importantly the people...

i wont forget the last night....the stars above us...

thank you lokon students!!!...thank you everyone...!!!

after comin back..my mind had a hard time adjustin back to life here....so we went to the JJ nite as 'lokonians'...tellin ourselves that this shall be the last night that we will be soooo high le.....
& yup....all of us enjoyed ourselves truly....all emotions poured out...everything....
in our hearts we all noe....

and now we hav to move on in life..."we'r jus a small part in their lives and they'r jus a small part in our lives..."-charlie

"if it's memories..it's meant to be kept and recalled whenever u wish to look back at some of e memorable and joyous part of ur life .....guess u cried is not cos u sad tt it's over..but happy that you have such experience at this moment.."- goujie

change

2006-02-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

Change

28th Feb - 10pm

hav been tokin alot to a grp n not tokin to another grp...

change is unavoidable in the process of life...its how u cope wif the change and continue after it..

i knew there were problems right after from the start n i chose to ignore when i can actually solve it fast..coz i thot things will be fine after some time...i was wrong........
jus when now u realise sth is wrong i wanna tell u but i was wrong again...i chose to type n not say...u misinterpreted it...
i was angry when u didnt took what i said initially as serious..the rage in mi was ignited..and wat follows was wat i jus wanna say...and that was wat u thot as negative...
its not tt u hav changed that things become liddat...i am sorry to make u feel so negative...
i am the one tt i has changed...someone question mi how can someone noes that she herself hav changed...i found out myself.....

i am lookin forward to this trip...and ya i wanna go light-heartedly...it was still easy days ago...=)

"if wat u said is e truth..den it wasnt wat u said that hurt her...but smth she dun wish to noe or hear tt hurts her. she will cry coz mayb she still cant accept it..let her cool down...if she cherish ur thots she will forgive u..."

thoughts

2006-02-26T10:07:00.000+08:00

26th feb-10am

thoughts

jus came back from camp yst...

shall i start from the start of the wk???

yup..i shall..
lost my pencil case...sad?? not really??..even if sad abt it should be abt why would someone took such an old pencil case???!! don really get it la..even if i can be sad abt is only cos e pencil case is from my aunt..=( she gave it to mi in sec three..it means its soooo old le...why would someone took it???!! i don mind if e person jus return mi e pencil case wif nth inside...i jus wan the case back..

i hav been losin alot of things this yr...so many things tt i treasure soooo much...either material-ly or e relationships...
ferst is e blue little pouch which even seok wanted to find n give it to mi but cant find it..the hp chain tt too has impt significance..den some more things tt jus simply follow...

it kind of hit mi quite hard abt dis particular frenship..we went yunnan together and before that there were times where we shared our views...but after gettin to know sooooo many many things....it hurts u... but tt's not the most...jus when u got soft-hearted n wanted to forgive this someone u got disappointed agn...tt was a disappointment that hit rock bottom...it makes u give up n ya u will only say:'forget it'...but i am not affected by it le...wat can u do when it jus don bothers u anymore as to wat the person does...to mi its jus strangers le....=)

sth quite light-hearted here....hehehhehe...at least i found sth back....=)
jus this little sth...hehehehhe...one of d items tt i lost....i found it back in the camp.............it makes this camp worth it...really.......

before goin to the camp was a mentally drained brain....after econs..i was stressed or not say stressed but veri bothered by wat ms chin had said....it jus simply struck mi...struck wat i hav been thinkin these days...since last yr.... i was kind of really down...lucky the gals were there to cheer mi up in the maths lecture..thou abit in the wrong way la...but really thank them.. i tink wat really cheer mi up was the playin of the cards in tt hr...it was really fun...it took my mind away from the things tt i was tinkin abt...thx dearies old man n uncle!!!!

the camp brin alot of memories...soo much...the scoldins the fun the stress the bondins...
the atmosphere in the camp dis yr was totally diff from wat it was before...
i couldnt slp in the nite n tt means jus lik some ppl in the camp tt was workin thru the nite..i didnt slp..it was too freezin cold n ya coz the ppl in the hall was not as many as last time...also coz of the prob that bothers mi in the day n also wat jessie msg mi in the nite...

many many things tt jus strike mi tinkin....

goin off to manado in jus a few more days...lookin forward to it????....YES!!...
i was quite disappointed la..when i got to noe tt dis trip is not purely a cip one...but at least we will still help to do sth for the ppl there...i wan to go over n c wat's the other side lik...the ppl the culture the way of life...the students there are really warm n excited abt us goin...hahahahha...they send emails...send smses and even call us!!!! we tink its gonna be sooo fun....n the sch's on a hill top!!! it means the scenery there will be soooo great...

we r goin there in batches n i am in the wed batch...i chose to go on wed coz of many stuff still unsettled...undone...so i am gonna settle them...n shall be missin from s'pore for 6 days..

to my class gals: take care arh...when i n hanh r gone u gals don slack too much or stress urself too much arh...know u gals r scared or L.V ...but don worry i tink the guys r there to rescue u all...hehehheh...
seok n jess...meet u when i come back...
steph..take care of urself...

luv ya...=)

international frenship wk

2006-02-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

17th feb - 10plus pm

to my dear frens....happy frenship wk!!!

v-day was fun!!!
thx gals...!!!...for the presents..choc...sweets..cake...butterfly..flowers...love them!!!!

early in the mornin almost late n so didnt get to meet my dunearn frens...carry class' presnts n exchanged the stuff wif e gals in e LT...it was sooooo fun...tink we made quite a din in e lt lol...
den went for tut n tt's where we gave out e 'packages'...so fun!!!

to you: thou the card says i nd time...but i tink now..liddat is gd le...its impossible to get back to the past n i prefer the present..liddat is better n i don wan to go back to b4 le...i said s**** for too many times le...but i tink i shouldnt feel guilty anymore...coz tt's wat i actually feel and i dowan to bluff any more....

went out to chinatown on vday lo..
but it was quite fun la in a way...
i tink it was the dinner tt makes the day!!
the jokes we cracked...the teasin we played..
to tink we actually stand and tok for hrs!!
n tok abt chinney chin chin for so longgggg!!!
we jus laugh till we cant stand up straight...n ya...a 'bondin session' wif the guys sia..
a valentines' dinner tt turn out really fun and great...

coz of the syndrome from laughin...we got the post syndrome n everybody achin in sch on wed lo..but lookin at d 'objects' tt we gain fun n laughter from we jus don feel sooo shagged...

but the wk doan onwards was really aggressive....doin work n work...in d end late for lesson on thurs!!...slp n slp...den work agn..

today is road run n ya...to ppl who noes...u should noe wat i n scully did la...heheh
after d event we did our work in one corner of e sch tt's so hot n stuffy...but quiet..in fact e whole sch's lik a dead sch la...

today was really funnie i tink..when we were studyin and things jus occur..hahaha...so drama lo...heh..studied wif scully gj n binghong..n we discussed e hmwk for hrs!!!!

now slackin here...

jus wanna to pen my thots down...but i really feel closer to the class le...so much closer dan last yr..
got to noe more abt the guys stuff....havin fun...damn lots of fun tokin to them...

but sometimes u would realise as u get closer to other people u tend to drift away from others..
sorrie gals..noe tt i hav been goin late to sch n nv join u guys much in e mornin le..n even lik today if i get sch on time i jus go to my class le..we haven been tokin much..as much as before..i noe we will catch up soon...but i noe i am not showin e concern tt a fren should give....

"izzit only when a friend gets into trouble den wil one be concern abt him/her? why cant we show concern for someone when she's still well n fine?"- jessie

short day

2006-02-11T14:36:00.000+08:00

today woke up real late..didnt do much...

here's a small little speech to someone: i may not noe wat exactly had happened..but ya..jus a big hug to u n a thank you!! i wont throw it away coz its a veri veri special gift from u to mi..the one n only..only i hav =))

cleared my room n preparin for the battle..i may b stressin some ppl up..but i jus wanna say chinese new yr is gonna be over in less than two days le..i will be kind of a mugger soon..n a real full-time mugger...

had a hard time catchin up wif work..now i still catchin up..

i will be returnin to the life in sec4..thou den was stressful n full of work i love those days.. where we hav our own classroom..almost 12hrs in it everyday.. the idea of everyone workin hard together..eatin playin jokin n shoutin in class are times tt i really miss..those were simply great memories..

comin to jc i hav kind of lost the momentum to do work le..things seems so fast so scary..but ye...i survived..heh..

yst went out wif class gals on v-day shoppin..saw alot of cute stuff..everytime c n item ur mind will pop up dis ques: will they lik this?? heh..i wanna give my frens a little special smth..

really had alot of fun choosin the stuff..=))

goin out ltr for a while to get stuff...work stil on hold sia..c wat a slacker i am man...noe tt i hav stuff to do but jus don wanna do lo...

btw my og got back their results yst..some satisfied some not..but wat i wanna say is..don let the results kind of pull u down..ya u may be sad n disappointed but u stil hav to decide ur path n move on..jus remember as long as u work hard for ur future..ppl will only ask for ur highest degree..they may be interested in ur Os now..but few yrs down the road they will be askin u wat's ur As or even ur diploma or even ur degree...so ya...cheer up okie...=)

e ferst post

2006-02-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

wanted to hav a blog since ages ago but simply got no time to set up n maintain..jus celebrated bd few days ago..got many surprises tt last till now..i wan to thank alot alot of ppl..

my class peeps: hanh, scully, jiaying n guojie for buyin e present!!..i love it alot..!!..to the class peeps..thank you for singin e bd song!!..to my dunearn gals..thank you for the msges...to liy, seok n pauling..i was touched to receive e present..to jess..its so sweet n nice of u to make tt..thank you my og grp for celebratin n makin d effort to buy a cake..tt's so sweet of u guys..over here from mi: ah tam, soumun, willy, yunjie thankew for e msges n wishes...=))

n specially to a fren who bought mi a cheesecake!!..n its really veri veri nice!!..n oso the cd tt you had made for mi..thank you soooooo much...[i tink u noe my ans to u on e ques in e cd alredi :) ]

dis bd was really nice n warm...=))

these months and weeks hav pass by really fast...many things had happened n many are jus gone in the wind liddat.. i am not gettin emotional la..jus tt many things r not wat i expected..class stuff, acc stuff n many more...

i really wan to thnk my class gals for makin my life in jj so fun n excitin...knowin them has made mi more talkative than ever n mayb even more nervous n excited dan last time when things jus happen.. its fun laughin wif them n lessons were never borin coz of e crazy games we play and the topics we tok abt..gals: i really hope we will jus keep smiling n havin fun in class..

for her i am really sorrie..i donno if u will c dis..but i m really sorrie..i donno how to tell u..but ya..mayb bein acquaintance is better bah...coz we hav simply diff views n style of communication..

seok n jess:..13th feb is comin!!!!...prepared for it??...i am not lo..we shall go out eat le!!!...thks dearies for jus bein there for mi when i nd help...n when i jus wan someone to tok n chat wif...

ya...quite formal huh this post..hehe..but i jus wanna thank u guys for bein part of my life...for makin my life fun n fulfillin...=))